What a Mother's Love Is

i was reading my moms blog just a second ago and i noticed that as read her blogs, i could feel her presence surrounding me. i could see her and feel her in the blog. i could pick out all the little humorous details that she puts in the blogs, even if they weren't suppused to be funny. i know quite a bit and watch quite a bit of shows about the supernatural and i know that this feeling i feel when i read what my mom types, i know is nothing like the feeling i have when i hear the words "get out of this place'' whispered in the wind.

even though i know that the feeling, is the feeling that something is in your presence, even when you really can't see the person that you can feel. when i right my blogs (which i rarely do, i only do it when i feel i should) i try to leave out my presence so people focus more on what im saying rather than thinking about how muc it sounds like me. i dont know why that because when i can feel my mom's presence in her writing it makes me feel so much better and warmer inside. rightr now im trying to leave my presence out because i want who ever is reading this to know what the difference is between someone who likes to put there presence in when they're writing a blog and someone who isn't.

both putting in your presence and leaving out your presence isnt bad at all because as long as you get the point it wont matter as much (i hope so atleast.) that is why i want my mom to keep putting her presence in her writings, because they make us feel like we're a part of you and because you make us or atleast me feel nice. that is what a mothers love is and i havent really figured that out until i read my mom's blogs. and that is why i love my mother more than anything in the world.

Just Let Me Be Myself

Now that i'm out of school, i realized that the way i used to act with my friends was the same kind of way they acted. And only a couple of nights a go i figured out that i was slipping out of my way of doing things. I have been trying to act more like myself again but it's just so hard, knowing that every morning i cant get up and see all my friends again. I just keep on thinking about how much i miss them and that doesnt help at all. The only thing that has been effective is when i listen to the song Just Let Me Be Myself (by 3 Doors Down) and it cheers me up, so i don't have keep thinking about letting go. It has just been hard and im trying to just be my old self. =)

Hanging On Once You've Let Go

It has been exactly 22 days, 2 hours, and 10 minutes since i last got to be with all my friends. All the yelling, learning, talking, laughter, swinging, flipping, jumping, and light friendly shoves from a good classmate are all gone. It is now the time i realized that the best school year of my life time had ended and we're all moving on. All of my friends are sad because school is out and now our friendships are hanging on only by our will power (in my point of view). But my will power and all of my pal's will power if strong enough so we didn't fully have to let go, of all the trust we built up all year. and im glad.

Brothers

Today i did something and experienced something that i havn't experienced in a long time. I spent time with my brother and i remembered how much i really do love him. I started reading a book to him. He listened and i knew that we were sharing something special. Disappointment struck me when i had to stop reading and i knew that what ever we shared in that time was something to remember. I am very lucky to have 3 brothers. No matter how many times i insulted him or how many times i hurt him i never meant to do it because he is the MOST important person in my life. I couldn't live with myself if we were to be seperated and not be able to tell him how much i really love him and how sorry i was for everything i have done to him. That is why we all need to really see what we love about our brothers.

Determining if you are in Love

Love is a strong feeling, probably the most powerful feeling you can feel besides anger and jealousy. It's hard to make up your mind if your truly in love or not and i know because my mother has talked a mile a minute about it. Some people aren't the best at determining whether they are truly in love or not and others are those people that are like love at first sight. It may not be February, but love is really flowing around my family and where i live. I recently had my first kiss and i've been having trouble trying to decide if i was truly in love with my girlfriend and when that happened, i found my self at the point where i didn't have to guess my standing point anymore. So, if i learned 1 thing from that experience, its that you shouldn't worry about if your in love or not and if you want to be manifest the idea of being in love and it will usually happen. But, the decision is all up to you.

Song and Their Lyrics

I have been listening to the songs lately and thought about what the message they were trying to us. I listen to them and then keep going back over them in anyway I can. Two of my favorites that have a great message are Waiting on the World to Change and We are the Champions. i would advise you to listen them and listen to their lyrics because you'll get something out of it for sure. Songs also carry me into different moods as i let the tune flow through me. Different tunes and pitches carry me into different moods. Next time you listen or hear a song or tune let it take you over and listen to the lyrics very carefully.